So, I’m not about to announce that I am completely over my past. Believe me, I have a hell of a long way to go. And I haven’t got closure from everything. Just a certain thing. A certain person. A certain time of my life. It’s taken years to get some sort of closure from somewhere without be able to go to the main source. But a miracle has happened over the past month and just a few days ago I was finally able to stand up for myself.
I woke up yesterday morning and felt in control and stronger than I have felt in long time. Today, I feel pretty drained. (Which was expected) But just to remember how much strength I felt was amazing. Although there probably will be so many times that I will crash back down and it will affect me in some way, It will never control me in the same way it has done for the past 5 years.